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I have officially completed 1 month of working out every morning (besides Sundays) and a couple of times that I had to skip for one reason or another. I’ve also eaten clean and only cheated a couple of times which is such a big deal for me because usually I talk myself into a pepperoni pizza SO easily. I’m not posting this to brag because I have a LONG way to go to get to my goals, but just because I think it’s okay to be proud of yourself and celebrating life’s big and small victories.
Incorporating fitness back into my life this last month has done so much good for me. It’s amazing what a few short weeks of hard work can do for you mentally and physically. Gaining weight during pregnancy, having a baby and adjusting to being a new mom and throwing Bell’s Palsy and losing my grandpa into the mix – it got pretty ugly for me at times these past few months and I focused too much on the negative. I just let Bell’s Palsy take over my life and I stopped blogging, I didn’t really get ready every day, and I just let myself go. I lost a lot of my baby weight pretty quickly after having Mila but I still didn’t really make it a point to lose the rest of it for several months. Us as women are always so critical of our looks, our bodies, we compare, etc. – whether we like it or not, so I was very self conscious. I just didn’t feel good in my own skin. None of my clothes fit right and I just felt like I was always so uncomfortable. I finally decided my pity party lasted 7 months too long (in that area of my life). I’ve obviously been OVER THE MOON being a mom and having a baby girl to love on. It’s seriously my favorite thing in the world and couldn’t feel luckier to have her. I’ve been trying to work on my positivity lately because as positive as I try to be, I can be a debbie downer (a lot of the time). I decided that if I can’t control what my face looks like right now (or maybe ever), then I do have control over my health and my body. I used to pick apart my face in pictures and be so critical of my forehead wrinkles and any other imperfections. Now, all I wish is to be able to fully smile again or for my wrinkles to reappear because that shows improvement. Besides the way my face looks, it’s also not fun to feel half of your face be stiff. I took that for granted, so I refuse to take my body and health for granted too. I decided to talk to my friend from college, Melaine and she has been such a blessing to me! I needed someone to encourage me and stay on top of me and I also give God all the glory because I pray every day that He keeps me motivated to better myself. Having someone that knows what they’re doing and talking about has made all the difference. I feel confident in what she tells me to do and what she tells me to eat. I’m also super thankful for my mom who comes to watch Mila every morning before she goes to work and Kalep who helps me meal prep. That one hour a day each morning has also given me a piece of myself back. I look forward to working out every morning and having “me” time for just an hour. I feel guilty for saying that but it’s true. It’s hard for moms to catch a break and while we are obsessed with our babies and husbands, it’s easy to lose yourself being a mom and wife. I think even that short hour helps me to be a better mom and better wife. I feel happier and more confident about myself and it’s exciting having a goal to accomplish and seeing changes in my appearance and in my strength. While I was running this morning, I was watching “Red Table Talk” which has become my latest obsession. It’s a series on Facebook by Jade Pinkett Smith and her mom and Willow Smith. Today, I watched an episode about Body Confessions, and everything they said was spot on to how us women are about our bodies and appearances. Jada has recently been struggling with hair loss and has been dealing with people questioning her new style wearing turbans, and she spoke about how her hair was such a big thing to her and starting to lose it just scared her to the core until she decided to embrace it. She said if God is going to take something away, let it be my hair. There’s people with sick children, with cancer, women who deal with infertility who would choose to endure months of Bell’s Palsy just to have a baby of their own, and so on. It really put it into perspective for me. Here I am, complaining because my face is a little crooked now but I’m healthy, I have a healthy baby girl and husband, among many other blessings, so if that’s what God is taking away from me for a lesson or whatever it may be (for now or forever), I just need to let it be and embrace it and trust in His will. I choose to love myself today (it’s a process), and encourage you to do the same. It’s not easy sometimes, but we all bring beauty to the world in our own ways, and it’s important that we embrace the good with the bad and our every flaw and imperfection.
Now about the outfit – this bra is less than $30 and so cute! It’s all my favorite prints in one. I wish I could link these leggings because they’re not the regular cotton adidas leggings you see in most stores. I picked them up for only $20 and they’re my favorite leggings (almost more than my Lulu’s!) My friends and I were at the lake and went into town for Starbucks while the guys went fishing, so we also strolled into Ross and found these. I love looking at places like TJ Maxx for athletic wear. You can find great things at great prices! The shoes I linked are also part of the Nordstrom sale and so cute. Less than $65!
PSA: I am not a fitness guru at all, and I hope this post doesn’t come across that way. I’m also a work in progress, so I have a LONG way to go. One more thing – It’s not the outside that matters, it’s the condition of our hearts that Jesus cares about, so I hope it doesn’t come across shallow either!
Follow my friend Melaine (@theheadline15) on Instagram for fitness inspo or to get started on your own fitness journey!
Have the best weekend friends!